Nemo

Tell me why i feel this way now..

My Webcam Story

I have a webcam now ..woohooo…
So the 1st thing I did is of course thank the person who gave it to me..=P

Day 1
Install it in my computer. Try it with a friend and I am so happy when he can see me. Mission accomplished and I went to bed happily.

Day 2
Still excited about it, I video call my friends in msn. Tadaaa…she can see me too and we keep playing with it. Suddenly I heard this loud sound. Oh, it’s the sound of my lappy fan. As usual, ignore it and continue chatting. The sounds become louder and louder calling for a help. Still ignore it..
Guess what, lappy hang so does my face and it’s not a very pretty expression too.. so I start to be the IT girl. Click here and there. Realizing that I actually make it worse, I stopped and text my friend, told her that my lappy hang and we will continue later or the next day. She replied that she knew about it because she can see my ugly expression stop there. = . =’
So I off the lappy and went to bed.

Day 3
Still not giving up, I video call another friend. And this time I don’t know what I click until my face become so big. I zoomed my own face and I don’t know how to un-zoom it. :’(
So we chatted with my huge face there for a while before I heard the same loud sound again. I knew very well that later lappy will hang but I choose not to care and continue not for long before lappy hang AGAIN. Doing the same routine, I text my friend about it. I off the webcam application and unplugged it, after a while, lappy back to normal. I continue my work and went to bed. Not very happy.

Day4
I on my webcam again and just like the previous day I heard that loud ugly sounds. However, today is a little bit different because instead of it hang, lappy went completely off. My screen become black with no sound at all..kapoofff~!!
I froze there and scare to death. I press the on button again but nothing happen. Not yet panic, I tried again. still can’t. SHIT!!!!!!
Maybe I need to wait for a while for it to cool off. So I waited.
Tick tock tick tock…
I on again..still nothing. Arghh…
My panic level increase but acting calm I went to bed.

Day5
Went back home from office and saw my brother is using the lappy… fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!!!
No more webcam experiment today and until I upgrade my RAM..hopefully soon..

'productive weekend'

1 Japanese series with 11 episodes + 3 movies + 1 magazine + update the blog = 'productive weekend'...hahaha

i need to do book shopping before the long holidays soon.. any volunteer? =P

Quarter of Century

OK...its 2011... quarter of century..=P

i was trying my hard on the last day of 2010 to write about my year and what to expect on 2011. But to be honest, i don't know how to start and i couldn't even find a 2011 song... haizzz

So many thing happened to me last year and its always gonna be a year to be remember because i lost my beloved grandmother who passed away in November 2010. i was so closed with her as she stayed with my family for the longest time. she took care of me when i was a baby and she watched me grow up. She was a great women and i will always love and miss her for the rest of my life.

2010 also thought me something important that sometimes you learn valuable lessons at the most unexpected times and places.

All of us make mistakes in life and trust me,I have made my share too. We can either forget it; try to push it away from our memories, hoping that someday we completely forget about it or we can embrace it and actually learn something out of it. It is of course easier said than done. But sometimes I do believe that the best way to learn from our mistakes is to carry it with you so that every time you have a chance to be at the same or similar situation again, you will be automatically reminded about it and hopefully can make a better judgment now. however, someone that i know once told me that its not fair to judge a new similar situation alike because it may have different taste and flavor in it. And we never know what and where we end up to.

When we were a kid, we’ve been told that life is either bad or good. Well, at least this is what I believe. But as I grew older, I realize that life is not as simple as what is right and what is wrong. As more and more events happened in my life, I realize that there are many areas in life that are grey. And we need to learn how to deal with this grey area so that we will not be stuck in that area forever.

I guess what really matters, is the impression you left on people’s minds as a person.

2011 is the year that i know will change me to be better. i will make sure it will. I have plans for this year and i hope to achieve all of that. what i need to learn now is how to go for what i want and what i believe in without fear. i need to be strong and grab any opportunity that can lead me to where i want to be without compromising with my belief and faith. I should not care what people want to say or judge me because i am the one who will live my life. And i want to live it well and with no regret. i need to be surrounding with people who can dig out my true potential and actually give me the opportunity to shine. And if this year i can find someone who can share the ups and downs, understanding, supportive, and just accept and love each other for who they are, its gonna be a great bonus =)

Just Enjoy It

One friend told me that she don't understand how a smart, attractive and confidence woman like me can be so insecure when it come to relationship. To be honest, i don't know what is wrong with me either, so yea, this is me.

This morning i listen to Lenka song and 1 paragraph in that song just perfect for me. feel like share it with you guys.. so enjoy ~ =)


I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

~ The show by Lenka

Pencarian yang tiada penghujung

Bulan Ramadhan bakal tiba..inilah bulan yang paling ditunggu dalam islam..banyak rahmat pada bulan ni.. tapi pendapat peribadi ku, bulan ni la selalunya aku akan menangis paling banyak.. benda yang simple pun boleh buat aku nangis.. banyak benda akan di lihat dari sudut yang berlainan.. hidup ni indah..menarik.. lebih banyak kita mendalami apa yang terjadi dalam hidup kita, lebih dalam kita kenal diri kita.. dan apabila lebih dalam kita kenal diri kita, lebih dalam kita kenal pencipta kita.
pada aku, pencarian ku pada yang maha Esa masih lagi panjang. pada tahap skrg ni, pencarian ku masih lagi tidak berpenghujung..
sebagai manusia aku selalu tersalah pandang apa yang penting dalam hidup..lari dari landasan yang sebenar.. tapi tu semualah yang menjadikan hidup ni lebih menarik dan mencabar.. tak siapa tahu apa yang akan terjadi besok...
harap bulan ramadhan tahun ni akan menjadi ramadhan yang lebih baik dari tahun sebelum ni... =) can't wait for it to come..
Sempena ramadhan ni, rasa nya lagu ni sesuai kot... lagu yang best... semoga cinta kita semua bertasbih...


Ketika Cinta Bertasbih
Melly Goeslaw Feauring Amee

Bertuturlah cinta
Mengucap satu nama
Seindah goresan sabdamu dalam kitabku
Cinta yang bertasbih
Mengutus Hati ini
Kusandarkan hidup dan matiku padamu

Bisikkan doaku
Dalam butiran tasbih
Kupanjatkan pintaku padamu Maha Cinta
Sudah di ubun-ubun cinta mengusik resah
Tak bisa kupaksa walau hatiku menjerit

Ketika Cinta bertasbih Nadiku berdenyut merdu
Kembang kempis dadaku merangkai butir cinta
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud sukur padamu atas segala cinta

Transition month...

August is here..
the month that i hope to be the starting month of a new me..
im tired to be the same old me... tired...really tired...
i need to change.. i have to change...
no more time to think about the past... past is past...regarless what, it will never be present or future...
i will be ready for a new challenges in life.. i have to be ready...
nope, i am ready... i know i can do it.. i am waieylia...
so i will do it...
soon, i will find what im looking for..