Exaggerate Mode

Life has been on a roller coaster ride for the past few days.. Its been crazy... Work has increased and there is too much to do in too little time... Sometimes I feel like a superwoman who is running everywhere to make sure nothing is missed out...haha

Listen

There comes a point in life where you just don't know where or how the next step should be or look like.

i know i should show myself the way. i know its my life and the choices are all mine no matter what and how they are portrayed. and i know that if i don't love myself no one will. and as much as i want to tell myself everything is alright, i shouldn't believe in such a lie and face up to what's really happening and deal with it.

i haven't been talking to many people these days.
not even the close ones i used to pour my heart to.
coz these days i don't know what i'm listening to anymore.
and i can't hear myself too clearly. what am i trying to say?

listen.

Destination????

One of those days when I am absolutely restless.. I am not sure why I am restless. My mind is not at peace. I am fidgeting with everything around me. I am missing something. Maybe it is deciding which path to choose when I'm in the junction of life where each path has different journey and adventure. Or maybe because the feeling that i'm doing what i'm not suppose to do.. Or the feeling of everybody is miles in front of me and i am still here. Or the fear of making the wrong decision.. Or... Or... Or...

Hmmmm...........

Just a Thought

How you know it is a lie when you don't know what is the truth...

Knock! knock!

She: knock!! knock!!

He: Who's there?

She: Nobody

He: Nobody who?

She: ..............

He: *damm* i dunno why i can stuck with you this long..

She: Coz you are mine :D

He: eh, i thought nobody is there..

She: =.=

Happy Federal Day

Today is Federal Day which means HOLIDAY~!!!! for me at least...hehe

for those who's working i would like to say padan muka..*evil laugh*

My activity today was *drum roll* ... chocolate cakes..

i know its hard to believe but i really did and i am so proud :D

here is the photo to prove it...haha

Before

After

Cooking the chocolate topping

Cut the cake to half and spread the chocolates

Put back the other half

continue to spread the chocolates on top of the cake

Done?? not yet...hehe

DONE :D

I would love to continue the story on how my mum nag me because i did not clean up the kitchen after that and other stories but i do not want to spoil the moment of victory that i have now.. plus i don't feel such information is important...haha

I'm Bored

Troublemakers should never be bored.

BUT

So something I struggle with now is being bored, a lot. Things that used to entertain me no longer do because I don't get the same rush I used to.

I mean, i need new entertainment, new activity, new 'assignment' or whatever you want to call it. Just something that will cure this boring life that i have now. It's only January so i should not complain instead i have to get my action somewhere.
I hold myself back in some ways because I know myself too well, and if I like something I might like it to excess and i do have fear-based decision-making. It is so not awesome but letting go isn't always easy. I like to say "What's the worst that could happen?!" and just go for whatever i want to do. i wish i have that courage.

I'd love to travel more. Go hiking and diving. Hip hop or Latin dance lessons. Car racing, drifting or at least Go-cart. Read more meaningful and interesting books. Hang out more with friends. Expand my networking.
Yes, I have started to register for a marathon and volunteering at home i.e learn how to cook, slowly. I plan to do this more and get out of my comfort zone. I want to take more chances, but I make a lot of excuses. I know that...hehe

What I want more than anything is to have experiences, and in this case I need to be my own rainmaker. Not an easy task but literally i already am..hahaha

I want to be bad. It's more fun.